My world has lost its colour.
All i see is black and white,
and shades of grey.
I don't want the world to see me like this.
I need my haven of peace.
To friends who care:
Thank you for walking with me all this way.
To those unknown:
Please give me my haven of peace.
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A girl by the name of iCeZ.
Born on 17th March 1983.
Enjoys Music: Listening, Playing & Singing inclusive.
Also crazy about basketball with the Slingers but moving further and further from it.
Pain Addiction = Wakeboarding.
I'm CoLd... So DoNt ToUcH Me...
Wednesday, July 19, 2006 Is it really mission impossible?
Am i really thinking too much or hoping for things not meant to be? I don't know... or maybe i just don't wanna know. In the first place, things happened real quickly and this was something i guess nobody, not even myself, would have expectly. He appeared in my world out of the blues although we should have passed each other by many a times before not knowing each other. At that time, we were both emotionally attached. But it was only a year later then i slowly noticed that i felt something different. Maybe at the start it was just 'cos i felt that he was one of the few who would be able to relate to my problems.. then slowly it was 'cos he was able to cheer me up when i'm at my lowest. Then came that fateful day.. the jokes to cheer me up, the "taking revenge", the smile and the wink and the "gift"... it slowly made me realise that i did feel something special. That lead to the constant messaging to him, asking him out although it only happened once.., showing concern.. i guess i dropped lots of hints but why won't he catch it?!Does he really not know or merely acting blur? But what for? I already said i just want an answer whatever it maybe... -I indirectly said i rather look at him then others and asked if he would rather i look at others.. the answer i got? He rather go sleep... - Who will message you everyday, show concern, get worried, wonder where you are, what you are doing, who you are with for no apparent reason?! - Why should i seem to throw little tantrums when you joke about finding other girls or get jealous when you are out with them?! I eat too full too free arh?! Yeah, and my head's still intact here. I know the circumstances are quite different for us.. which is why i don't dare to let many people know, especialy those within our circle. But those who know all think it's mission impossible. Is it really? But can't i just want to try? Or at least i have the right of getting an answer, right? Maybe 'cos of your current situation, or maybe 'cos you don't wish to change our current friendship or whatever.. i really don't know. Like i said, call me stubborn. But even if the chances are 1 in a million, i wanna try and i just want an answer. But for now, i will wait till after the competition for everyone's sake. If by then nothing happens, then i will tell you and move on..
