My world has lost its colour.
All i see is black and white,
and shades of grey.
I don't want the world to see me like this.
I need my haven of peace.
To friends who care:
Thank you for walking with me all this way.
To those unknown:
Please give me my haven of peace.
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A girl by the name of iCeZ.
Born on 17th March 1983.
Enjoys Music: Listening, Playing & Singing inclusive.
Also crazy about basketball with the Slingers but moving further and further from it.
Pain Addiction = Wakeboarding.
I'm CoLd... So DoNt ToUcH Me...
Monday, October 30, 2006 Driving myself senseless... Part 3
Okay, time to continue.. Thursday was spent in school and then rushing to NBL so that aside.. Friday. I had to go for CCS tutorial in the morning as i had already skipped last week's class. But my heart was already in Punggol, thinking about the wakeboarding session later. Was messaging Dawn and Amelia about the plans. End up as i was rush out of school, Dawn called to say that they were late and the cake had already arrived. Firstly, we won't be able to ride as Terry had an appointment at 12.30 and we had to cut the cake asap before it collapes since we bought a mousse cake. Haiz.. Actually Dawn was thinking that I needn't go down since I won't be able to ride as well but since we were celebrating Iris's birthday (and the sake of seeing HIM). I rushed down. Anne was riding so i had to wait for them to turn the boat back for me. Once again the sisters struck and had teased him when i wasn't there about the fact that there wasn't any breakfast for him as I wasn't around. Gggrr.. Then i passed him the ipod casing which i got for him and the teasing started once again.. how i had specially looked for it for him, if he was touched, why didn't i wrap it nicely for him. Haiyoh! He merely thanked me for it and asked how i got it lar. Think we both didn't wanna say too much to prevent anymore teasing. So we headed back to Waketime to celebrate Iris's birthday. Glad she like the cake. Told her how Dawn and myself had been planning for it. Then we all headed to Bugis for lunch and chitchat. Told them to stop the teasing as i really didn't want things to become awkward between us. Then hanged around the shop with Anne before heading to town to meet Zihui to shop around and have dinner. Was having dinner at Cineleisure and happened to be talking about Him when the phone beeped. Guess who? Haha~ HIM! He messaged to thank me again for the casing and that now he could ride with his ipod and listen to music. Hehe~ Was kinda shocked actually since he had said earlier that he would be heading to Cineleisure as well to get his headsets, so was wondering if he happened to be there as well or had he seen me. Anyway, asked if he got his headsets to which he said he did. So just told him that i happened to be at Cine with friends for dinner in case he hadn't. Hehe~ Spent the rest of the night chatting with Zihui as she was troubled over things between her him and stuff. Well, sometimes i feel it's kinda weird when i listen to people's problems and give them suggestions, etc when i can't even handle my own relationship problems.. Saturday was Hari Raya lunch at my uncle's place and then back to work at home. Then i said that i was going wakeboarding yesterday and so i did with Dawn. This time round we were there early and had breakfast first but had to wait for him to help Shane get Jim's boat started as there was something wrong with the battery. Once again Dawn started on her attics about letting me sit in instead so i could look at Hm and then trying to go to the toilet and leaving me alone on the boat.. Hurhur~ Then it was out to ride when He suddenly disappeared. Realised He jumped down behind the boat and i went like, "What you doing down there?!" and He was like, "What you think? Pee lar~" Ermz.. Opps. LOL! Sorry lar. But did you have to do it there when i'm like going into the water?! Ggggrr.. LOL~ Then we were suaning each other about "eating prata" and enjoying the "freeflow" of seawater. Haha~ Think we can be quite cranky at times. =P But times were shortlived 'cos he had to rush for the next appointment. Sigh~ Headed down to town for lunch with Dawn and chatted about Him as well as other relationship stuff. Well, i really don't wanna think about it too much since after what i heard about Him as well as the fact that He's attached. Don't wanna give myself any room for thoughts or hopes so there won't be disappointment. But still my mind runs a mile an hour with him. I'm driving myself senseless. HELP!
Sunday, October 29, 2006 Driving myself Senseless... Part 2
Been so caught up with work and stuff to update so shall have to skip some days and just talk about some interesting things of more significance. Let's see.. I stopped on 18/10.. so continue from that saturday, 21/10... Went wakeboarding with Dawn and Anne since we all weren't satisfied with the last session. I had agreed to make breakfast for everyone since Dawn came up with the idea and i was free on friday to go grocery shopping and prepare. Well, i won't deny that it was kinda with HIM in mind as well. I made sandwiches (Tuna, Egg Mayo and Ham & Cheese) as well as sushi maki (tuna, crabstick and cucumber). Its been a long while since i last prepare any food stuff. Haha. When we were on the boat, Dawn starting hinting me to offer HIM the food but i didn't want to 'cos i felt that it would be really weird. But worse, Dawn actually said, "Aye, May made breakfast leh. Specially for you." ARGH! Dawn darling, please spare me! Anyway, He did end up eating and was saying that i must have woke up very early to make it. Hehe~ Well, i feel kinda relieved that He didn't shun away but just took things as a joke. Even when Dawn teased and asked Him what he wanted to eat next time so i would make it for Him, He just joked that he would treat Dawn to "prata" next time.. with unlimited sauce of sea water that is. Haha! And once again we took our revenge together by teasing Dawn with Jim. =P Fast forward Tuesday since i spent most of time time rushing assignments... Tuesday was a public holiday but there i was stuck at home trying to crack my brain over CAE442 assignment. couldn't thnk of anything so went to toa payoh to get some books before coming home to continue working. But after having stared at the computer for more than 10hours in total, it was still blank. STRESS! Couldn't take it any longer and decided to head out for a drink. Where else would i think of going... Loof. Haha~ Well, it was both geniunely to have a drink and relax and also in hope to catch a glimpse of Him. But unfortunately, no signs of Him and with Iris's prompting, asked a staff about Him and whether He was the boss there or was He just working there. Comes out He's the assistant manager there but even Iris was suspecting that he was either the boss or owned shares there. Oh yeah, i just recalled monday night; how i was waiting for a seat at Minds Cafe with Desmond and gang and ended up walking all the way to Odeon Tower and back, just wondering if He was there. Well, i believe He was but don't ask my why. Don't wanna sound scary. Haha! Didn't go wakeboarding as usual on wednesday due to various reasons so we postphoned it to Friday. So i spent the day at home rushing assignment and in the evening, i actually found the guts to go down to Ai Qing Hai (Musicdreamers Cafe) to audition as their female singer. Was really nervous while waiting for my turn and rehearsing but i'm really grateful for the people there who were very nice and especially my accompanist/guitarist Haoyuan. He tried to calm me down, find my key and even to rehearse through the whole song. Really appreciated. Unfortunately, i didn't get in and didn't get a chance to thank him for everything. Sigh... Was actually thinking that i would get in but... Well, will consider if i'll upload the recording of performance... Anyway, after that i gave Dawn a call to see where she was as we were planning a surprise birthday celebration for Iris at waketime on friday. She had just closed the shop and started joking on where i wanted to meet her and told me to just say that i wanted to go Loof. LOL! But honestly that was not my intention lor! But anyway, we did end up going there and saw Him and Shane. He came over to chit-chat and was kinda blur since He had thought we were riding the next day on Thurday. We told Him about the plan for Iris's b-day and phones starting ringing. Both His and Dawn. So He went to answer His call and Dawn her's; leaving me there. Don't know why but felt kinda down suddenly at seeing Him and His response. He didn't return until He was about to leave. Confirmed how we were going to arrange for the cake and then He went home as He was too tired. Sigh.. Why this weird feeling... Well.. it's getting lengthy so shall stop here. Will continue so i can include tomorrow (or technically today) since i'm going wakeboarding with Dawn. Haha~ I'm losing my mind...
Monday, October 23, 2006 Driving myself Senseless... Part 1
Okay, it's been a long while.. shall update from the last blog as usual if i can hardly remember anyway.. Monday: never expected our dear Weili to go ask around about HIM and what he heard was much less expected. The immediate response he got from his friend was "Why you ask leh? Your friend like him right? Must Be!" Okay, ermz.. what can u deduce from such a response. That's its something common or expected. Why? 'Cos what we learnt is that HE'S attached (which we kinda already knew from Dawn) but what was more unexpected was that HE is a player who flirts with SIA girls. Thoughts: Well, if we recall about what his job nature is like then it does sound highly probable. Saded.. Despite having long knew that it was impossible but couldn't help feeling a sense of sadness at what i heard. Ended up gossiping with Dawn about what i learnt. Haha~ Anyway, since Iris is not around at the moment, Dawn has revealed her true nature. LOL~ Read on to understand why... Tuesday: Recieved a call from Dawn to say that my "angel" has arrived. Haha. 1 of the 7 sets of bikini in Singapore. Got Iris to bring it in especially for our group. Ended up buying the "devil" set as well and spending a bomb on them. Going broke soon. Siao liao lar! Spent quite a while continuing the gossip session with Dawn and learnt about how HE had ever walked past Dawn's shop and introduced a girl as his girlfriend. Sweet and fair looking... Haiz.. Wednesday: Wakeboarding day and this time Ann was back from New York to join us. Really fun and we saw a hugh jellyfish! Terry wanted to scoop it up with a pail but it was too big. I can now do both my toe and heel side pretty well, conquering rollers and wakes. Terry taught us a new trick, the 180-turn, which is to rotate the board 180 to change our side of riding. just that i'm not used to riding the other way with my left foot leading. Anyway, i did ask a stupid question as we were asking Ann about her job restrictions. I asked HIM saying that i though his girlfriend was from SIA. Answers? No. Opps.. It must have sounded really weird. Siao lar! Then had to wait for Jolene to come as she could only ride in the afternoon. Ended up tanning on the pier although Terry had allowed me to slack on the boat. But well, thought it would be kinda weird. Anyway, HE didn't come out to look for me until to check on his boat and then deciding to go ride a set with a big group of Yunos and gang tagging along. I tagged along as well and yeah, was charmed by seeing him ride. HE really looks cool riding. Haha~ Then hanged around on his boat and on the pier before Jolene came. We went out again and that's where all the nonsense started. First was the discovery that HE understood some Japanese as Jolene and I noticed that HE could somehow respond to what we said in jap. Like asking Him where the detergent bottle was, what time was it and how He laughed at Jolene's response that the guy was not cute at all. I ended up asking Him directly in japanese if he understood. He tried to avoid the question till i asked again, saying that He didn't wanna understand although He knew a little since there were some japanese riding with Him. Opps, really hope he didn't hear or understood what i told Jolene about Him and liking Him.. Argh! Then i went to ride again and fell when i went far out heel-side. As usual i would place my hands down to try to paddle a little but this time round, i felt something squishy with my right hand and immediately screamed that there was something in the water. Was damn scared and told them i didn't know what it was until HE starting laughing and told me.. it's just the soil. 'Cos i was nearly on the coast. Damn paiseh! ARGH! And He starting teasing me about jellyfish and iganas.. and how the old post nearby was haunted.. Idiot! Haha~ Told Jolene to help me whack Him. Then He wanted me to swim back to the boat as it was just a short distant but i was already too tired and my knee was killing that i procrastinated for him to throw out the cable. He teased that we should go for cooking instead since both Jolene and I have knee injuries and i was complaining of the pain and not being about the hold my heelside. We were so tempted to kick Him into the water lor! Think i was kinda mean as well since i told Him that He complains of his knee as well when he rides. Don't mean it in a bad way, k.. Then it was Jolene's turn to ride again so was left on the boat with Him. Don't know why He suddenly digged out a orange plastic thingy so asked Him what it was. A poncho.. and where was He thinking of putting it? Just wanted to take a look. While driving?! Siao~ He was thinking about how He could put some in Loof but i'm like.. who will still wanna hang outside to drink if it rains?! Nuthead. Then teased about how we could wear it while wakeboarding, as a fashion statement to town.. I'm like, you wear and show me lar! LOL! But i actually ended up entertaining Him by putting it on. I'm nuts! LOL! Jolene and I spent a long time washing and preening up, much to the shock of Him and Jim as he called to check where we were and Jim went like, "You both are still around? Spent so long in there.." to which i retorted, "Girls mah~" Haha. And we actually was thinking if He would offer us a ride as He was heading over to Loof but He didn't! Tsk tsk! So we called for a cab and waiting but when the cab nearly arrived He was driving off, saw us waving good-bye and stopped to ask where we were heading. Actually we were thinking nevermind since the cab was already turning in but a ride from Him and that Loof was pretty near town was tempting, so we hopped on. tried to make small talk on the journey. It was ok but really nothing much since Jolene and I talked most of the time. he dropped us off at Bugis so i went over to Dawn's and told her what she had missed. Haha~ Took some photos to put at the shop as well.. Haiz.. eventful hor? K lar.. too long post liao. part 2 coming soon.. Haha~
Updates first before i elaborate on the title... Thurday: damn hectic day having had to rush after school for NBL as i was down for stats again but this time round i was made head statistician instead of my usual job as media stats. Kinda funny having had to call the extra details of the game and not having the headset on so had to raise my voice to call over all the noise. Nearly ended up losing my voice but drank alot of water. Thankfully the game wasn't too quick paced but the slingers lost anyway. Oh yeah, asked Deb if she knew who was under 'Mer' and about me having hugged it last time and her reply? I don't wanna know who it is under there 'cos it's suppose to be some fat guy. Haha~. And to think that i was crazy enough to go "Mer, can i hug u?"... he must have thought i was mad. LOL! I'll skip Fiday since i was kinda non-eventful... Saturday: Spent the day at home since i didn't really feel like going out and had work to do. But i ended up doing something silly and damn paiseh! Well, thought would go chill at loof since zihui was going with her friends but ended up not joining thenm since i didn't know her friends and i couldn't find anyone else to accompany me. Well, the thing was that Zihui was going down with her friends but couldn't call through to make reservations. So she happily decided to call me to help. I ended up messaging Terry: "Hi terry. Still at waketime? You working at loof tonite? Thinking of going down with frds. How can we make reservations? Can get the number or something from you?". Terry ended up calling back as i didn't put my name. So told him who i was (Don't even know if he knows who i am...) and he asked if i was on my way down. So had to say that i'm not going over but my friends are and about 5 of them ('cos i forgot to ask zihui how many of them were there). So he said he would make a reservation under my name for them. Haha~ But zihui then told me there were about 7-8 of them. Faintz~ So messaged terry to apologise and told him there were abt 8 of them heading down at about 9+. Felt really damn paiseh asking him for the favour. But what made it worse was i found out that he might just be the owner of that place! OMG! What the toot was i thinking having called the boss on his personal number and getting him to reserve a place for my friends?! But how the heck would i have known?! ARH! Really damn bloody paiseh! Feel like finding a hole to dig and bury myself in. Haiz~ Now i really don't dare to think too much liao... Then today: Woke up to Zihui's message if i wanted to go out. Didn't mind since i really didn't feel like staying home although i have a pile of work to be done. So decided to head down to the newly opened Vivocity to take a look. Well, it was big and crowded. Period. Haha~ Okay lar~ The place looks good and has an open area which overlooks Sentosa. Kinda cool~ But quite a number of the shops were not opened yet and neither did i find anything of fancy. Then met Des and Alan for a late dinner before heading home. But well, i don't know what got over me to have lost my mind to message him- Xing. (Not that HIM) We had been avoiding each other for a month now except for the sms i sent to remind him to return the books. Decided to send him a message with the other HIM in mind. Not to show off or what but just to let him know i'm trying to move on and in hope of breaking that silence. Sent him this sms: "Hey, how have you been? Don't know if i should message but just wondering, do you find me too young? Don't worry, i'm over you already. Just curious 'cos of some other reason." Waited for a long while, thought i would not get a reply. And then it came... "It's not you. It's me.. I'm not ready." This was a reply i had not expect nor was prepared for. It struck right into my heart. Memories came flooding back and questions popped back into my head. How we used to be, things he said and if it was ever possible for us, if only i had "listened" to him and not rushed into things. Did i give him too much pressure? Was he afraid of hurting me? Everything just came back.. But i had to reply so kinda told him about the HIM. "Don't worry, it's not 'cos of you. Juz that my friends have been promoting someone to me but he's 34." And his reply? "Nt bad mah. Younger than me." Well, what kinda a reply was that? Hur~ So i said "You both old man lar. Haha~ But he's kinda like you. Anyway, i dont dare to think too highly of myself too lar.." And that ended our 'conversation'. Don't know what exactly happened but it sent me into a bolt of blue. Decided to head down for a drink despite everyone's disapproval. But actually, was thinking of testing 'fate' in a way 'cos i thought of going down to that place for a drink and to see if i was 'fated' to meet HIM. But ended up the place was closed early and He wasn't there 'cos i asked the staff would said HE didn't work on Sundays but was at punggol with HIS boat (actions inclusive). Haha~ Conclusion? Not fated bah~ Just hope HE won't know i was there. I think it has all made me lose my mind...
Hehe~ Time for updates! But where shall i start? Hmm.. Ok, shall start from Monday where i stopped. If you noticed that the blog looks slightly different, well, that's 'cos it crashed right after the last post. gggrr.. Don't know how but nearly all the script in the template went missing although i knew i never even touched it. Damn pissed at having to write everything again. Was complaining to Stanley and gang during CED tutorial and was busy trying to rescript when weili said he wanted to see my blog. So i showed him what was done and still up. Talked about how i picked up wakeboarding recently and about the HSBC worldcup as he stays near bedok reservoir. Then showed him the photos we took and i mentioned about HIM. Haha~ Showed them HIS photos and because of my reactions, they started to tease me about HIM as it was evident that i cared. Haha.. Think the whole world is gonna know soon about it. *blush* Nevermind, as long as he doesn't know lar. Haha~ Then i had to go for NBL in the evening. Was media stats as usual but couldn't really focus as i was feeling tired and the match was kinda fast paced. But it was fun and both MengKoon and Patman played their first match and scored 3 free throws and a field goal respectively. Then tuesday. Woke up feeling really bad with my whole body aching and tired. Attended CCM thinking there was a test but found out it was postphoned and many people were absent. Decided to take the rest of the day off since i was having a bad headache and i hadn't prepared for CCE. haha. But went to the doc at toa payoh and ended up walking around, bought a baby shower gift for Jenny and did my mani-pedi there. LOL! Think i am just allergic to school lar! =P Was about to head home when i met Jason who was working. Asked if i wanted dinner so waited up for him to have dinner together. He offered to give me a lift home but had to go to Novena first to settle some work. So went there to walk around while waiting for him. Haha~ Kinda fun lar. He's a nice guy lar but he's attached and i don't have that kinda feelings for him lar. Then come wednesday. Wakeboarding day! haha~ Ermz.. well, the session was nearly cancelled as Dawn didn't feel like going and the rest couldn't make it. Iris was busy flying around, Ann was in New York and Jolin had class. I was nearly going crazy until Dawn agreed to go. Haha~ Once again my actions betrayed my heart. Amelia was supposed to join us but overslept. So it was just me and Dawn.. Terry's boat just got back from repairs so we were waiting for it to be lifted back into the water then Jim came along to the docks so we asked if he was coming along. His reply was that he was coming along to drive the boat as terry wanted to ride. OMG! Did i hear him wrongly?! haha~ 'cos we had been disturbing terry to ride with us for the past few sessions and he kept giving excuses and now he was like self-initiated?! So we got terry to ride first and i was really trying to hide that silly look on my face but just admire him ride. ShiFu so cool! Haha~ But jim siao lar. Teased him saying he shy 'cos got girls around 'cos he fell a few times. To which i retorted that he will shy meh? LOL! But he really looked good when he was riding and i was right, he looked better with his hair wet and up. haha~ =X The rest of the session was damn fun as Terry and Jim kept poking fun at each other but it was mainly me and Terry ganging up to tease Jim and Dawn 'cos they kept bickering and really seemed like a funny couple. Really damn funny! Then Jolin came to join in as she overslept for class but Dawn had to leave first as me and terry managed to get Jim to give her a ride to town. So i accompanied Jolin to ride on Terry boat. Felt really awkward being on the boat with Terry only as Jolin was riding. Haha~ Tried to find stuff to chat about. Haha. And i told Jolin how i felt about Him lar. Haha~ Really enjoyed myself that day. Then went over to Iris's shop as the new stock was in. We both ended up being her free instat part-timers as it was really busy and Iris was in a mess. Ended up buying a new set of bikini while Jolin bought 3! Haiyoh~ We are really spending a bomb for the sake of wakeboarding. Then went to meet Yewen and the rest at Minds which was surprisingly super quiet. Spoke to Kelvin who found us very noisy and that Ben would only be there late at night. haha~ Had a bad headache so didn't play. Kelvin wanted to offer a panadol but couldn't find one. Then joked about me going wakeboarding 'cos of cute guys which i retorted none but that Didi of mine had to pop in and mentioned about HIM. Haiyoh! Idiot! Haha~ Which i joked saying that there weren't any cute guys around and then about finding Ben cute. haha~ Think the headache really made me lose my mind. Argh~ Went to walk around with the group and shopped at flash and splash. Was looking at clothes when i saw some berms and thought about Him wearing them. Haiyoh! Cham liao lar! I really losing my mind! Help! Stupid Frued~
Haha.. Ok, shall now continue from the previous entry but first, i just realised upon reading it that it is a little confusing with the use of the "HE". Ermz.. ok, the "he" here in question is different from the previous "he" of the other post. Haha~ Let's put it this way. No, i am not having a change of hearts as that "he" still means alot to me. But in a way, judging from our little or no correspondence, i know i have to put him away. It's a slow and hard process but i'm taking it a step at a time. And with this "he" now, Iris found a way to put it nicely. It's a kind of admiration you have for a person becuase of things he did and his character. You don't need to have that person but you are just contented to know that person and want to treat that person nice. But sometimes i wonder to myself if i'm attracted to this "he" becuase of the small similarities that they both share. It's weird but then again, they are two different people. Well, nothing will happen if i don't do anything stupid again. Now to continue.. Thursday wasn't very happening since it was packed with class. But hard to rush my CCL essay through the night since i had happily thought that it was due on Sunday. I really should stop procrastinating from work as they start to pile. Then comes friday. Same process of going for class, then headed over to Iris's bazzaar stall to help her unpack and "open" shop. I seem like that forever extra at her stall. Hanged around for the whole 4hour break that i had since i had to go for CED makeup which i missed on Monday. But how would i have known that the class had been shifted an hour earlier and i walked in an hour late. Haha~ thankfully he still allowed me to take my attendence and i just slacked around for the hands-on session. So was able to end early to help Iris pack up since it was the last day of the bazaar. Was damn surprised that we were able to load everything into her car considering that she had brought a cart full of stuff, not forgeting the cart itself. So i hitched a ride down to town and "shopped" around with her a little to look at shop designs to gather ideas for her new shop which will be opening in Novena Square2. She then had to meet her friends so i was left wondering around. Wanted to get some of the wakeboarding pictures developed so i ended up strolling all the way to bras basah and walked past the place where "HE" works. Haha~ intentional or non.. if i say non, nobody will believe i guess but it's true! I mean it's like just next to bras basah right? And i didn't even go up or i don't even know if he's there. Chey! LOL! But silly me. Of course the shops were all closed by then so decided to head home. And finally yesterday.. Was out with Zihui shopping for her stuff for her D&D. Think i can turn into a shopping assistant or consultant soon. LOL~ Found her something to wear and got it altered from a dress to a top instead to suit her built. Then hanged around for coffee while i told her about "HIM" and said how girls are more attracted to someone older due to the maturity level. Man and not boy anymore. But we also tend to want to pamper our guy more by treating that person well or even to put him before ourselves, but it's a way for us to show our love and concern. This has been the case for both of them. As my dear Yewen didi pointed out on how i started searching and getting something that "HE" said he wanted and had asked Iris to keep a lookout for. Haha. But he's just a person i wanna be nice to.. And today? Haiz.. don't even wanna mention it. Let's just say "basketball". really starting to feel irritation and disappointment from it. Passion's dying. Maybe it's time to slowly fade off the scene too...
Haha.. who's frued? why frued? Read on to find out... But be forewarned it's gonna be long... Updating back from Monday's last post. Yeap, i went wakeboarding with Amelia and Jolin and ended up missing all my classes. Haha~ But was kinda pissed that day so here's a breakdown. Was suppose to reach waketime at 10am but ended up being there nearly 11. Terry was wondering what happened but his boat was not back anyway ended up chatting while waiting for Jim. So ended up riding with Jim but it was short as he had an appointment at 12. But yippee! I'm finally up and riding and i crossed the wake! Fell pretty hard though. Ouch! Wanted to ride again but it would have had to be with Jeremy or wait till 4 for Terry. The pros were riding with Terry as well and Terry offered to have us tailgate in Jeremy's boat for free. Really wanted to watch but Amelia and Jolin wanted to leave as they weren't too happy. Sigh~ There i was left stranded as i was already too late to go back for class but was too shy to tag alone or ride alone. Hanged around awile to watch from ashore before deciding to head back to school to meet Iris and attended CAE tutorial. Told Iris what happened and then came the part where we talked about HIM. Haha~ Can't remember why but we talked about how we find guys who are more mature attractive, especially in terms of their personality. Think it came after some comparision between HIM and Jim.. So that's how the teasing began. Why Frued? Well, you know how it can be said when you fall for an older more mature male figure... Nevermind, go figure it out yourself! Haha~ Ok, Tuesday.. Spent the afternoon at Iris's bazaar stall in school after my lessons ended. Haha~ I'm like the super free extra helping her out. Waited for her to close shop before we went for dinner together with her hubby. Went to eat Korean BBQ at Thompson. Well, not forgetting another day of teasing by her. She actually asked if i would ever ask HIM out for dinner or something! Goodness.. hope she'll never repeat anything similar with HIM around. Then met Desmond and Valour for KTV but left early as i was kinda pissed with their friend who brought a girl along. Sat next to the system all the while and selected a long list of songs. Then come Wednesday.. Wakeboarding day but it ended up with only Iris, Dawn and myself as the rest were all not feeling well. The 2 had already started the teasing upon my arrival. ARGH! Haha~ But Terry's boat was down and once again ended up riding in Jim's but this time, Shane was driving while Terry coached. Haiyoh~ Iris actually asked Terry if he was riding and when he wasn't, she actually said, "how could you bluff her? She wanted to watch you ride leh. Make people disappointed." IRIS!WHAT WERE YOU THINKING?! Faintz~ Had a pretty good ride if not for the rain. Sigh~ Couldn't ride on since i could bearly open my eyes and Terry told me to get up if i couldn't see. But my dear iris once again struck... told her i couldn't see with the rain and her reply was,"nevermind mah, can see HIM can liao." Faintz. Hopefully he didn't hear it. How am i gonna stop the two of them from blabbering?! ARGH~ Ok, shall end here and split the post.. TBC~
Hehe~ Got some of the photos from Amelia so shall post them up here. =P
Amelia, Dawn and Me! I'm turning as tan as Dawn liao~
And finally! I'm up and riding! Woohoo~ Haha~ Really starting to enjoy and love the sport. Guesss the wind and the waves really help in brightening me up from my darkness. Also went to catch a glimphs of the HSBC Wakeboarding World Cup today. Whee~ The Zero Gravity challege was superb! Imagine doing 900 degree turns in the air. Cool~ Don't think i'll ever do one. Just dream of a 360 i guess. Haha! In a few years time arh? LOL! And i just made a revelation.. think we're really lucky to be in terry's boat 'cos i just found out it's like the best and only one around. Haha~ The monster X-star. Don't dare to abuse the boat liao if not terry might just start making us clean the boat for him. LOL~ Sorry Shifu! Anyway... Sssshhh... i'm gonna skip lecture to go wakeboarding later. Haha~ Wakeboarding Rox!
Well, it's been a week of term break and slacking most of the time. Been procrastinating too much i guess and havent really got much work done although there's a pile to be done. Sigh~ Anyway, a quick update of the week... Been starting to go the gym again since i'm really bored and havent been making use of it despite the bill every month. Really need to start working out as well to one, turn those flabs into fabs, two, condition myself physically for both my wakeboarding and basketball. Haven't been in really good shape due to lack of workout and my knee's been giving my problems again. Sigh~ I really have a body of a old battered person considering the "unknown" injuries i have all over me. I mean i haven't really done any sports competitively or to high extremes but how do i account for my bad ankles, knees, elbow, unaligned spine... Sigh~ Am i sighing too much? Sigh~ Well, wednesday is wakeboarding day as usual but what was different was the boat and the people. Terry's X-star is currently at bedok reservoir for the HSBC wakeboarding worldcup series so we went on Jimboh's X9 instead and naturally Jimboh was the instructor as well. Well, i hate the way he talks (shant't explain why) but i have to admit that he did teach me quite abit. Managed to correct my posture finally to be able to go against the rollers and wakes but still trying to maintain my toeside and heelside despite the choppy waters. Hmm.. wonder when i can start doing wakejumps. Haha~ Well, the atmosphere that day became different as well due to the change and there were new people who came along. Didn't find them too friendly. Whatever~ Haha~ i never like most people anyway. Here's a photo of me and amelia, we bought the same bikini but different color. Hehe~ Had lunch cum dinner with iris and lituan before heading to the indoor stadium for NBL stats. Was assigned back to being media stats which might be a blessing in disguise 'cos it was the organisers and the media people who requested me back. And after the game, they gave me the thumbs up and said that's why they wanted me back. Finally some recognition admist the chaos and politics. Really made my day. And then there's today~ Wanted to go watch the HSBC wakeboarding but it was a rainy day so decided to stay home and slack first. Then went to boon keng RC since i agreed to be the MC for the mid-autumn event. It was fun and i haven't been doing so for quite sometime. But still feel that my chinese sux. Haha~ had a bit of difficulty when i had to translate whatever i just said. But you can't blame me right?! i potato! =P And guess what, i actually got asked by the event company we hired if i was interested to do freelance with them for events! Haha~ Told them about my stint with Dancing Angels Productions but that has been quite awhile and i'm not sure if i'll be back for this Christmas. the company's not really pro but at least it's somewhere for me to start with. Oh yeah~ and i missed the audition for Uth! stage 'cos i didn't know the time for my slot of the audition or whatever. Damn inefficient organisers! Gggrrr.. hope they hold it again soon 'cos it's an opportunity not to be missed to be trained by a professional. Sigh~ Still miss him, think of him everyday... Someone save me~ Sigh~
