My world has lost its colour.
All i see is black and white,
and shades of grey.
I don't want the world to see me like this.
I need my haven of peace.
To friends who care:
Thank you for walking with me all this way.
To those unknown:
Please give me my haven of peace.
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A girl by the name of iCeZ.
Born on 17th March 1983.
Enjoys Music: Listening, Playing & Singing inclusive.
Also crazy about basketball with the Slingers but moving further and further from it.
Pain Addiction = Wakeboarding.
I'm CoLd... So DoNt ToUcH Me...
Monday, May 29, 2006 Updates..
Well, shall do a little update for these few days... Friday was spent going back to school to discuss about the setting up of an outdoor science classroom. Had the impression that we could start work immediately but ended up trying to figure out what to do and most often having chit-chat sessions with the teachers. Then went for dinner together with Winnie and Simon at Bugis. Kinda non-fruitful day. Saturday was another non-eventful day although i had planned on watching X-men with Shangyong. Ended up having to cancel as there was a probability that i had basketball duties. In the end, felt kinda cheated since i only went to watch the matches. Well, it was kinda weird as i had to look around to see if i spot any "familiar faces", if you know what i mean. Sometimes i really wonder who's avoiding who. No thanks to all my nonsense for having created such predicaments. Felt kinda lost so decided to do some retail therapy as Mrs Seow always says. Haha. Went midnite shopping since the Great Singapore Sale was on. And the damage so far? Thank goodness it's only 1 top, 1 mini-jacket and 1 pair of jeans so far coming to around 100 bucks. But it's enough damage for 1 nite, haha. I promise never to break Winnie's record of spending a 4 digits sum in 1 day! Ermz, although it ain't much diff if it was spread over only a few days. Control! But there's still shoes and more tops in the shopping list... Hmm... And finally today.. Went for bball in the evening and went abit daffy. First was to check of the coast was clear. Thankfully, yes. Then came the silly smile i had on my face when i saw someone looking really cute today and pretty striking. Even uncle david wondered why i "sha xiao". But that didn't last for long and turned into "ku xiao" when his someone came along. Haiz. I must remind myself that i don't stand a chance... Nevermind. Shall spend the next few days painting away. Had better start work on the wall murals for the outdoor science classroom. Hopefully it'll help keep my mind away from all my nonsense.
For every action, there is a reaction. be it good or bad, it still happens and most often is irreversible. And in my case, i'm suffeing the consequences of my actions. Things happen be it whether you expect it or not. Though they could have been avoid, but who can avoid the unexpected? And as above, one can't turn back time. So no matter how i wish i can, i can only regret that such a thing happen. Haven't been sleeping or eating well since that faithful night. Don't quite understand why. It's not so much what happened but more of the fact of maybe losing a friend. it sounds ridiculous but hey! my life is full of nonsense. And my pool of friends have been shrinking, dwindling, nearly non-existantial.. Been plagued by moodswings especially at night when it gets dark, quiet and lonely. Questions start popping up in my head although honestly it's still plain rubbish. And i realised i've started to pin my hopes on anywhere i can hoping for things too far-fetched. Only to realise and laugh at my own insanity not much later. Should i go ask for sleeping pills? anti-depressants? Prozac maybe. Haa~ I need to escape from all this. A harbour to rest. My haven of peace...
