My world has lost its colour.
All i see is black and white,
and shades of grey.
I don't want the world to see me like this.
I need my haven of peace.
To friends who care:
Thank you for walking with me all this way.
To those unknown:
Please give me my haven of peace.
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A girl by the name of iCeZ.
Born on 17th March 1983.
Enjoys Music: Listening, Playing & Singing inclusive.
Also crazy about basketball with the Slingers but moving further and further from it.
Pain Addiction = Wakeboarding.
I'm CoLd... So DoNt ToUcH Me...
Sunday, October 08, 2006 Continuation...
Haha.. Ok, shall now continue from the previous entry but first, i just realised upon reading it that it is a little confusing with the use of the "HE". Ermz.. ok, the "he" here in question is different from the previous "he" of the other post. Haha~ Let's put it this way. No, i am not having a change of hearts as that "he" still means alot to me. But in a way, judging from our little or no correspondence, i know i have to put him away. It's a slow and hard process but i'm taking it a step at a time. And with this "he" now, Iris found a way to put it nicely. It's a kind of admiration you have for a person becuase of things he did and his character. You don't need to have that person but you are just contented to know that person and want to treat that person nice. But sometimes i wonder to myself if i'm attracted to this "he" becuase of the small similarities that they both share. It's weird but then again, they are two different people. Well, nothing will happen if i don't do anything stupid again. Now to continue.. Thursday wasn't very happening since it was packed with class. But hard to rush my CCL essay through the night since i had happily thought that it was due on Sunday. I really should stop procrastinating from work as they start to pile. Then comes friday. Same process of going for class, then headed over to Iris's bazzaar stall to help her unpack and "open" shop. I seem like that forever extra at her stall. Hanged around for the whole 4hour break that i had since i had to go for CED makeup which i missed on Monday. But how would i have known that the class had been shifted an hour earlier and i walked in an hour late. Haha~ thankfully he still allowed me to take my attendence and i just slacked around for the hands-on session. So was able to end early to help Iris pack up since it was the last day of the bazaar. Was damn surprised that we were able to load everything into her car considering that she had brought a cart full of stuff, not forgeting the cart itself. So i hitched a ride down to town and "shopped" around with her a little to look at shop designs to gather ideas for her new shop which will be opening in Novena Square2. She then had to meet her friends so i was left wondering around. Wanted to get some of the wakeboarding pictures developed so i ended up strolling all the way to bras basah and walked past the place where "HE" works. Haha~ intentional or non.. if i say non, nobody will believe i guess but it's true! I mean it's like just next to bras basah right? And i didn't even go up or i don't even know if he's there. Chey! LOL! But silly me. Of course the shops were all closed by then so decided to head home. And finally yesterday.. Was out with Zihui shopping for her stuff for her D&D. Think i can turn into a shopping assistant or consultant soon. LOL~ Found her something to wear and got it altered from a dress to a top instead to suit her built. Then hanged around for coffee while i told her about "HIM" and said how girls are more attracted to someone older due to the maturity level. Man and not boy anymore. But we also tend to want to pamper our guy more by treating that person well or even to put him before ourselves, but it's a way for us to show our love and concern. This has been the case for both of them. As my dear Yewen didi pointed out on how i started searching and getting something that "HE" said he wanted and had asked Iris to keep a lookout for. Haha. But he's just a person i wanna be nice to.. And today? Haiz.. don't even wanna mention it. Let's just say "basketball". really starting to feel irritation and disappointment from it. Passion's dying. Maybe it's time to slowly fade off the scene too...
